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Wednesday, 29 July 2009
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CCW - prompt 167
I feel a bit more confident about this next attempt because there are so many places I can go with it. As is my bad habbit, here is a bit of an explanation of it before I actually write. If you don't care about my explaining, then just go past the line and start reading there.
So I am to write about a hobby of mine. Well, I've never really been able to stick to one hobby or passion, so it was hard to choose, however, thanks to band camp I have found something I can go with. It is actually a combination of a few different things I have a passion for, but that all come down to one thing: rythem.
I am a singer. I am in my school's honors choir class and I am one of the choir director's strongest singers as well as one of the ones that catches on the easiest and has the most energy when singing, not to mention one of her best behaved students. I love to sing. I love music in general.
I am a military gal. I joined my school's Marine Corps ROTC class in place of gym and got hooked. The persuit of excellence. Leading by example. The preciseness and detail. And I absolutely loved... drilling. Left. Left. Left, right, left. Left. Left, right, left. Change step. To the Rear. Forward. Marktime. Right and left oblight. Left and right step. Left face, right face, about face. Parade rest. Dress right dress. Open ranks. Close ranks. Platoon, attention. March! I loved to be drill leader. I had the loudest and most commanding voice. But even when not drill leader, I still loved drill. The uniformity of it all. The rythem. And all those precice movements, not to mention I kinda loved the boots for the uniforms. And when given "fall out", one step back and shout "aye aye sir/ma'am" then an about face and shout "hooah!"
This worked out very well for me when I joined color guard for the band. We have marching, where we must both pay attention to how we march and take precise steps and stay in step with the correct footing and we have to be in the precise spot for the formation. There's the counting, making sure we use the exact number of steps, and all the while we have to remember what chord we're on and which part of the flag routine we're on, just as the band has to remember which part they're playing while still marching just the right way. And no matter which way you are going you must always face the front. I spend a lot of time walking backwards in our current routine. The timing of it all. Remembering all those details and making sure you get to the next part correctly. And despite how it is so precise and rigid with the timing, in the end the parts just flow together like water.
So, with that SUPER LONG explanation finished, here is my prose about band camp.
I'm With the Band
"Marktime, march!" One, two, three, four. We march in place to get our step. We have to do this drill a dozen times to know where everyone is because we cannot look left or right. Always look forward. Always face the crowd. Use your peripheral vison, but that doesn't help when you're marching backwards. We know where to go. We know how to get there. And we have to get there in exactly sixteen steps. Exactly sixteen. No more, no less, do not get there early. Everything is timed out exactly. If your next position is close, take smaller steps. They don't care how you get there, as long as you get there as close as possible.
"Thirteen, fourteen, fifteen, sixteen, HALT! Two, three, four...." We are in a hold, we do not marktime, which means if we are just a little bit off, we cannot fix ourselves. We must stand exactly where we are, even if we are in the wrong place.
Always start on the left foot. Never on the right. On every odd number your left foot should be hitting the ground. On every even number, your right. Don't forget, soon we won't be able to count aloud because we have to play the music. But I am not a band member. I do not play music. I cannot play an instrument. So why do I say "we"?
Because I am a Flag Girl. I am on the Color Guard. Loud and proud, I am with the band. So while the band plays their nice music, we make their music look nice as well. They are the audio. We add visual. This is not just any music. This is Marching Band.
"Band, ten-hut!" BAND! "Band, horns up!" Snap to attention. Hold up your weapon. This is a battlefield of rythem. Of sound. Timing is everything.
One, two, three, four. My job is to Flourish. Five, six, seven, eight. Now throw in a Jasmine Spin. Don't forget! Keep in step! Spin the flag and don't hit your legs. HALT! Two, three, four, Pinwheel, clank! Seems I've hit my head. Too bad! The time is still marching on and the band continues. Find your spot and get back in there. Keep on time! Don't lose your step! Oh yeah, and when we play the school song, the Flags will have to sing the lyrics, too. Five, six, seven, eight, go team show your might! Scoop Scoops, then Eastern.
Keep in step, stay with the rythem, remember where you are, if you screw up, people will know, so practice. In the heat. In the sun. For hours. With sore legs and feet. Your arms get tired from keeping them up, but you cannot let them rest, you must keep them at your shoulders. Hard work and dedication is what it takes. And nothing could be more thrilling than the anticipation of getting it right.
Not bad for the first day. With two more months of practice you'll be ready for competition. Who cares about the football team. They just work out and slam into eachother dressed in tights while they toss a ball around. But me.
I'm with the band.
Sunday, 26 July 2009
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Mother Daughter Bonding - Rant 2
After having gone to sleep at one in the afternoon, I woke up to find it was still light out, so I guessed that I had only been sleeping for about four hours or so. Checking my phone to see the time, I found that it was six...... in the morning.
So I got up and out of bed, relieved that I would not have to readjust my sleeping schedual again for the upcoming school year. Then my mother says that she is not feeling well. Surprisingly, she had decided to see a doctor rather than sitting there trying tons of over-the-counter meds and home remedies! This makes me happy, because she is taking care of herself. So, I offer to drive her there, for fear of her not being well enough to drive without crashing. Well, not really. It was mostly just for her convinience and to show that I cared.
So, off we go to the clinic! And I come to the horrific realization that I forgot my glasses! However, I do not wish to be critisized by my mother in her grumpy, cranky state about how stupid I am to not think to put on my glasses before driving away. So I risk the slim chance of being pulled over and getting a ticket or even my lisence suspended for not wearing my glasses while driving when it says on my lisence that I must wear corrective lenses while driving due to my eyesight. There actually being a risk at all due to the fact that my driving skills are impared whenever my mother is in the car with me. This being because she has a tendancy to critisize and get into arguments with me. Nonetheless, I choose to put up with this because I love her and give her extra slack on how harshly she speaks to me simply because she is my mother. As predicted, she critisized my driving as she complained about how much pain she was in. I simpathized with her and spoke without venom and even attempted to be a little sweet sounding, but to no avail as she still found that my tone was condecending and rude. I tried my best to avoid potholes in the road because she complained that they hurt, but it was difficult without my glasses and even more so that I was not yet skilled at that, thus it did not bother me. However, it did bother me how she critisized that I was "slamming on the breaks" which I did realize that I would break a little hard, but she was exaggerating for sure.
Finally we get to the clinic and she is not mad at me as far as I could tell, but I was starting to become a little annoyed with her. My opinion of her current behavior did not improve when she acted almost child-like in the way that she spoke of her symptoms to the people working there and over-explained about some of the information they asked for despite how she had said to me that it hurt to talk and she was actually saying that she may want me to speak for her. I ignored this because of the fact she was in pain... that is, untill we were alone in the clinic room waiting for the doctor. I don't quite recall how it started, but at one point she had commented on how I was picking at my nails to keep myself from going insane and asked me to stop. So I let a little bit of a jerk-ish comment slip, "It's always annoying to you." So she retorted with a slight hiss to her voice, "Well, it's super annoying now." Still, I had stopped at the first mention out of respect for her. Then I said something that I wanted to say many an argument before for the longest time. "By the way, there are a lot of cruel comments I could make, but I won't out of respect for you." As usual, she twisted it around to the ugly extreem, "Oh, that's so nice of you to say! That you're thinking about how mean and discusting I am, but you're holding it back!" It was expected, so I was calm about it and explained myself, knowing that this, too, would sound cruel and I knew exactly why, yet still I continued, explaining that I was not saying mean things because I did not wish to hurt her and that she should realize that it was reason for her to believe I cared about her and loved her. Not in those exact words, and I can see how they could easily be interpreted as harsh speakings, but I needed to say it. Of course, she then proceeded to rant on about how I was so mean and how my tone sounded so harsh all the time... untill the nurse came in to take her blood pressure again... at which point she fell completely silent. Typical. She's not willing to speak harshly when someone can hear it for fear of "making a scene" or some such.
Soon I felt myself becoming dizzy and feeling the need to lay down, despite that I was already sitting. That was when I realized that since I had been sleeping for over eighteen hours I also hadn't eaten in almost a full day. I determined that I was not well enough to drive if I was going to be so dizzy, but only if my mother was well enough to drive. So, after giving her a moment to calm down some, I asked her if she was feeling better and when she replied yes, though not fully better, I mentioned that I felt dizzy enough that I thought it might be best if I did not drive. She seemed just fine with it, chipper, almost.
Of course, I later found that her chipper tone was a lie, one of the reasons I do not like the idea of learning how to control my tone to sound less mean, because then it's just as good as flat out lying and I would rather lie and have it be completely obvious that it was a lie, almost as good as telling the truth. She then began on about how I was so selfish for "making" her drive when she wasn't feeling well. At first I calmly explained in as nice a tone as I could manage that it was for our safety. Then as she continued to go on about how selfish and rude I was for not considering the fact that she was sick and making her drive, despite the fact that I had still offered to drive her to the clinic without even being asked and the fact that she could still have told me she thought it better if I drive I finally let myself exaggerate that I didn't want to cause us both to die in some violent car crash. This continued all the way to and past McDonalds and even in the pharmacy as we waited for her perscription, though more subtle in the store as it was a public area (and we wouldn't want to cause a scene now would we?), and even out of the store as I offered to drive once again despite the fact that I was dizzy once again and now also very angry which would make my driving become much worse.
I gave up on defending myself against her attacks, a first time thing for me, and listened to her go on and on about how I am so selfish and I make everything about me and that I cannot think about her for even a moment when she is so sick that she is in massive pain and all these other things about how even when she is struggling with something I continue to complain "oh poor me" and make everything about me and my "pety" problems. Not to mention how I am so rude and how my tone always sounds condecending and "hurts her feelings". If all of these things she said about me were true then why would she even pay attention to them in the first place, let alone let them get to a point where they could actually cause her emotional grievance?
Still, with her being the only person I see for months at a time besides my boyfriend it is hard not to worry about what is causing her pain. I do not like things to cause her pain, and since that would be me I find that I do not like myself. When I try to remember our arguments I find that I am no longer able to remember anything other than the things I said purposfully to be mean to her. I never used to be mean on purpose, but since she always thought I was mean regardless of how nice I tried to be I saw no point in holding back anymore. Why try so hard to be nice to someone who is going to be mean back to you regardless? Still, I try to be nice to her to a point. Then it ends up just being a mental self-defence.
I do not see how I am so cruel and such a bad person other than these instances of anger, yet so many times I am told that I am selfish, self-ritchious, condecending, know-it-all and just plain cruel in the way I speak and act. So how can I not be a bad person? You be the judge. Am I a bad person?

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Thursday, 16 July 2009
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CCW - prompt 166
Okay, so this one is going to be the first one I'm going to try submitting. The prompt merely said it had to be inspired by plants, not feature them as the main part. So, here is my prose story inspired by dried flowers that people press into books and put in albums like pictures. I hope I'm not too late to submit. I don't think I'll win with this, but I want to submit it anyway. And because I've got weird thoughts in my head discouraging me I'm not going to vote at all for a winner. Next time. When I don't feel like a loser cuz it's my first time submitting.
I left the ending as a cut-off because the concept of the flowers being memories is already expressed.
Flower Album
Every bit about the woman was sharp. From how she carried herself, to her clothes, to her tongue. A business woman by trade and a leader born to be. Her skin was lightly tanned despite numerous hours spent indoors and what little make-up she wore was solely to maintain a proffessional look. Any curves or bust she had to speak of were hidden beneath a rigid, well kempt, black business suit worn properly with tights and polished, black heels. The flowing mane of dusy brown hair she clearly had was held tightly in a bun and one wondered how she got it so neat without ripping something from her skull.
She marched up to the desk of the secretary and began handing her papers. "Go over these and have them on the boss' desk the moment you're done and have him know that I already took care of the memo he's about to get."
Before the woman could march off, the secretary called her attention, "Wait, Ms. Brand. Um, I would like to know if maybe you and I could... hang out sometime." The young woman seemed a bit nervous, though her smile was inviting. "Perhaps this weekend? We can do whatever you want. I'm open to anything." She was a fairly young woman and had been working there since her high school days. She had graduated by now and was now keeping the job to help get herself through college. Her hair was black and slightly messy despite the obvious effort to keep it in order, contrasting with the smooth, pale complexion of her skin. She wasn't what you would call a nerd or geek, but she was far from being dim-witted.
For that moment Ms. Brand's expression melted into a honey sweet smile. "Sure. We'll watch a movie and get drunk at my place this Friday. You can sleep over if you want. And maybe I'll teach you how to get your hair to cooperate better. Also, you can call me Casey."
"Tina," the girl replied.
Casey turned on her heel and snapped back to the other direction, resuming her rigid demeanor of before.
Come Friday, Tina rang the doorbell of Casey's flat and soon the door opened to reveal a beautiful, relaxed woman. Her entire being seemed to spill out a calm, country aura. There was long, dusty brown hair flowing every which-way and her tanned skin seemed to glow with a honey-smooth complexion. She wore a white wife-beater that showed her light curves on a body that wasn't large, but definately could take a hit or two without breaking and a pair of fitted jeans without shoes.
"Oh! I'm sorry, I must be at the wrong place," Tina exclaimed to be confronted with giggles.
"No, hun, you're at the right place," Casey explained and invited Tina in.
The house was definately a city dwelling. Things were organized and had a modern feeling to them. The only thing to speak of that was even slightly country was the beat-up book sitting open on the table. Tina went over to look while Casey went to the fridge. Inside the book was a collection of pressed flowers.
"These flowers are beautiful," Tina complimented as she was handed a beer.
"They're the only things I have that truely remind me of home," she responded as she opened her own beer, then pointed to the forget-me-nots on the open page, "Those were given to me by my last boyfriend before I moved away to go to college. When he gave me these he said, 'If you're single by the time you turn 35 I'd still like to marry you, and I've got these flowers for your collection so you won't forget!' God he was a cute one."
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CCW - My 8th Attempt
"so this will be tricky and i applaud all those who attempt this whether you win or not because you're amazing for trying.
Write something, poetry (would be easiest), prose, whatever in alphabetical order while making it make sense. I don't care if you do acrostic, or if you're insanely clever and make the beginning of each line sound like the letter- "see" instead of "c" for instance. Or if you can find a way to make each word, one after another, in prose be alphabetical you'd be my favoritest person ever."What I came up with isn't necissarily prose, but it was difficult and fun to come up with.
About Baking Cakes. Danielle Expects Four Glazes Held Inside Jars. Kids Like Macadamia Nuts On Pastries. Quickly Rush Straight To Uncle Vinny'sWaitor X-Treme. Yank Zac.
So we'll make cakes when we're less busy. Okay?
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CCW - My 7th Attempt
The prompt for this one is simple. I was given the phrase, "And then. There was light." And I am supposed to explain why there was light.
And then there was light, as the TV screen flicked on.
And then there was light, as a new bulb was screwed in.
And then there was light, as the car was jumped to life, the headlights back on full glow, shining on the grease stained woman in front. She wore baggy jeans and an oil stained white tank-top and a pair of leather gloves on her hands with a pair of grey sneakers kicking the pavement for her. "There ya go, Carl! She's all reved up for ya," she shouted at the driver as he got out to talk to her.
"Hey, Kimi, you're coming to that concert with me, right?" he asked her, looking like a puppy begging for a treat.
"No, Carl, you know music isn't my thing. Music to me is the hum of electronics and the pur of an engine running."
"Come on! Please? I'll bet I can get them to let you work on some of the equipment."
"And how are you supposed to do that?"
"Backstage passes, anyone?"
"Hm, that is tempting. Backstage passes are quite a deal to pass up, even for someone who isn't a music fanatic. Alright, but only because it's you."
With the deal set and Carl seeming quite happy, he drove her over to where the concert was taking place. Turned out Carl knew the band that was playing and it also seemed that he talked a lot about Kimi. A good time was had by all despite several times of someone having to dissapear for a moment to prepare something. Then one of the band members walked in seeming somewhat distressed.
"Hey, what's wrong?" Carl asked, getting up.
"Oi, it seems that one of the stage's big TV moni'ers has kinda malfunctioned, and the guy that's supposed to fix it if anyfin' went wrong isn' here. Oi, Kimi girl. You're good wif ele'tronics, right?"
"Yeah, but, uh, where did that accent come from? You didn't have an accent before."
"Uh, right. It's stage presence. The fans love the accent. Now, you think you can help a mate out, here?"
"Sure, I got it," she sighed with a smile as she got up and followed him to the stage.
It was mostly dark on stage, so the crowd couldn't see anything and couldn't wonder why she was up there with a band member. He brought her to the TV and showed her the cords that seemed to be mixed up. "Well here's where your problem is," she explained easily, babbling about things the guy wouldn't understand. She hooked things up properly and then turned around to find the band member she had been talking to had left.
And then there was light. Two stage lights turned on, one shining directly on her, the other shining on Carl, who was front and center on stage with his guitar and a microphone standing in front of him. "Hello everyone, I am the opening act tonight. My name is Carl, and I pulled in a few favors so I could sing a love song to you all." He pointed behind him as he continued, "This beautiful lady right here, her name is Kimi. And she doesn't know it, but I am in love with her. This song tonight is for her." He then turned to her, holding the microphone in front of himself. "Kimi, won't you be my girlfriend?" he asked before turning back towards the crowd and begining his song.
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